Soulslayer
aka Bride Breaker
Skinwalker
Childripper
“I am capable of more monstrous things than even your father did to you, Lexie. He killed himself but I’d take you with me knowing it was all your fault.”
a man who comes into his victims’ lives at a vulnerable point, learns every secret, pretends to be the “only one who could ever love you despite...” (list of everything that person feels most guilty about in their lives): he directed me to his preferred endometriosis surgeon less than two months after he met me
For me, the reasons why this man called me unlovable, undesirable, and “fundamentally broken as a human being” include:
1.) My father’s death irreparably scarred my psyche to the point where no one else would ever tolerate “my damage” which he called crazy. He often referred to my father’s suicide in graphic detail, often describing painful moments for hours as he deprived me of sleep.
Below is a short samples of his voice:
1.) Sample 1: more-monstrous-things.mp3
I recorded his voice secretly so I do not have a full unedited version of the five-ish hour tirade saved. However: I made many voice notes. Some of the longest are an hour or more long. I kept the laptop he bought me: data may be salvageable from that computer. I am happy to share relevant files with an international investigation to help his other victims, their families, and future generations of innocent people.
Here are some of the photos I have of this man on vacations and on our honeymoon. He proposed on December 6 after a terrible boat tour he coerced me into going on. Please note the schooners very closeby as he’s texting.
The man I knew as Jared seemed very disappointed that he had to give me an imitation diamond ring. (He screamed at me when that ring later disappeared and threatened to call off the wedding because I’d lost a Brilliant Earth low-budget piece. Not a month’s salary and about two months’ rent, even though did half of the renovations on the house that he owned and I paid rent on when he lived together.)
Here is a screenshot of my inbox with the keywords I used to find this particular email. Full version to be shared later. I need to take some time away from reliving this extremely painful part of my life.
